A New Perspective/Outlook/Light

It was brought to my attention that being honest during my down times and sharing those temporary thoughts isn't the best thing to do.  My negative tone can be taken in ways I did not even think about.  I took it upon myself to think that by being honest and real with all this for my friends and family to read was okay.  I was wrong.  So in understanding that venting doesn't need to be done through this line of communication I share this.

My wife and I are blessed. I need to be thankful that she has a job.  It would be a lot stressful if she didn’t. At least one of us has a full-time job to support us both. It doesn’t matter that it’s her. What matters is food, clothing, shelter, and knowing that God is our Father and ultimately provides for us if we only let Him. Has He not provided everything that we need and then some?  

My parents made sure, and to this day still do, that I didn’t do/go without.  They made sure that I had more growing up than what they did. They supported every decision through the years of college hopping and traveling cross country. The last thing I need to do is send a message to them, to my loving supporting wife, to my family and friends that I am a failure – b/c that will probably make them feel like failures.  

I am not a failure. I am not poor. If I want to be productive for the Lord then now’s the time. I have free time while I work a few hours a week.  I could be doing something for the Lord  instead of wasting away to the ‘Internet job search engine lords.’  For when I have a full time job there stands a good chance that I won’t have as much time to do other things of service.  So what am I doing? I don’t have to have someone’s permission to do work for the Lord.  I shouldn't wait on an email or phone call to give me permission to come help out at a food pantry. Did Jesus ask first? No. He just went and met the people where they were.